Swordwriting V-Short writing

I come out short, when it comes to writing…
There is no way of fixing this problem of mine. Every time I promise myself that “I will write more often” but it never seems to come up that way in the end. My drawer piles up with unfinished writings which are left unfinished. I look at the texts one by one and they keep staring back at me… and that’s about it! And guess what?! I can’t throw them away either. I try to, but I just can’t. From time to time I look at a text and all of a sudden something triggers my fingers and I finish it faster than I can think…
This is against everything that my life (both personal and Aikido life) is. The day opens and I’m all practice and lessons and managing the Dojo and meeting my students and talking to my readers…
But when it comes to writing I feel that discipline is out of the window, planning is out of the door, any logic is simply not there… I feel like a lazy sunshine boy who does nothing, hangs around at a beach with as light clothes as possible, doing the least possible of things. It simply doesn’t make sense. So, I officially state you that, as a writer, I am counterproductive. Totally!

When writing “comes to me” it is always at the worst possible of moments. And then we have panic, because I got three texts hanging over my head all at once and I have to take notes for all three of them before I lose them forever… And then, suddenly as it came… the rain of texts stops.
And then I drift lazy at my imaginary writer’s beach…

August 2, 2012